A Valentines Story… Part 3

* Knock * Knock* *Knock*

My heart sank. I knew the instant I heard the knocking that it was Josh.

I was left alone at my sisters house to babysit their little girl while her and her husband went on a run Sunday afternoon. In the meantime Josh shows up.

I had this inkling feeling that he was there to ask me if i’d want to start dating him. But mind you we have maybe exchanged 10 words total in the whole time we’ve known each other. Like I said I was somewhat introverted. LOL.

He comes in- ( this was one of the most painfully awkward moments of my life)

“ Do you have any idea why i’m here” Josh said, his voice shaking.

Me- Thinking, of course I know why you’re here but I will never admit to it incase I may be wrong. “ No, no idea” I said.

I forget the exact words he used but it was somewhere along the lines of “ I’m into you, are you into me?” If you know Josh, you know this is so something he would say. lol.

I gave him no reassurance or display of feelings because I was so scared that this wasn’t going to work. He asked me if I had any feelings for him or how I feel regarding him and I totally left him hanging. In my mind I was thinking this is way to good to be true but also simultaneously dying inside that this exact scenario is happening.

In the mean time he comes to tell me that when he got to my sisters house and realized I was there all alone he thought he had been set up. He was told by my brother in law and sister ( the sister that married his brother, sorry so confusing! ) to meet him at their house, where I was. But what they meant to say was “ meet us at the park!”

My B-I-L and sister were meeting Josh that afternoon (supposedly) at the park to talk through things and see if they have any idea what i’m feeling and just to kind of see if I may be interested at all.

Well when he gets to the house and sees that i’m there all alone he manages to believe that since I was there all alone surely they set this up and it was going to be this perfect first conversation, that I must know all about it and the feelings are mutual.

It was all around a horrible ordeal.

Josh calls his mom to tell them what happened and my sister and brother in law rush back as fast as they can from the park ( mind you they ran to the park). They returned moments later completely out of breathe running to the house as fast as they could hoping that Josh managed to keep his cool and not tell me everything. Nope not a chance!

I was literally so shocked that Josh actually had feelings for me that by the time my sister got back to the house I was shaking all over and felt like I was going to pass out..

This was a huge ordeal for me as a sheltered, shy, introverted 17 year old.

I just remember I walked out of the living room by the time my sister got back and I honestly forget how we left things. All I know is that he called my Dad to tell him what happened and my dad thought it was hilarious. I left that weekend without saying a word to him, telling him goodbye, or even having his phone number.

I went back to Montana in absolute turmoil.